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Wednesday, July 20, 2011

8 Arguments Against Anxiety Compiled by John Piper

#1 Life is more than food and the body more than clothing. Matthew 6:35


#2 God feeds the birds and you are more valuable than they are. Matthew 6:26



#3 It's pointless, it adds not one hour to your life. Matthew 6:27



#4 If God clothes the ephemereal grass, he will clothe eternal you. Matthew 6:28-30



#5 Unbelievers are anxious about stuff, and you are not an unbeliever. Matthew 6:32a



#6 Your father knows that you need all these things you are anxious about. Matthew 6:32b



#7 When you seek first God's kingdom and righteousness, what you need is added to you.



#8 Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Tomorrow's trouble stays there. Matthew 6:34

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Royal Access

"Likewise the spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches our hearts knows what is the mind of the spirit, because the spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God." (Romans 8:26-27)






Imagine that your prayer is a poorly dressed beggar reeking of alcohol and body odor, stumbling toward the palace of the great king. You have become your prayer. As you shuffle toward the barred gate, the guards stiffen. Your smell as preceded you. You stammer out a message for the great king: "I want to see the king." your words are barely intelligible, but you whisper one final word, "Jesus. I come in the name of Jesus." At the name of Jesus, as if by magic, the palace comes alive. The guards snap to attention, bowing low in front of you. Lights come on, and the door flies open. You are ushered into the palace and down a long hallway into the throne room of the great king, who comes running to you and wraps you in his arms.


The name of Jesus gives my prayers royal access. They get through. Jesus isn't just the savior of my soul. He's also the savior of my prayers. My prayers come before the throne of God as the prayers of Jesus. "Asking in Jesus' name" isn't another thing I have to get right so my prayers are perfect. It is one more gift of God because my prayers are so imperfect. Jesus' seal not only guarantees that my package gets through, but it also transforms the package. (Excerpt from A Praying Life by Paul Miller)

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

The Treasure Test

A couple of nights ago, at caregroup, my pastor talked about where our hope lies. He discussed counting all things as loss in order to gain Christ (Philippians 3:7-8). One thing that stood out to me, was his challenging question of what is my treasure. If (fill-in-the-blank) did not happen in my life or work out, how would I react? There are many things I hope will happen in my life, but there is a tendency in me, and I wager other Christians, to put my hope in those good things. I've seen how i react when God denies me things (it's never pretty) and it reveals how much of my heart is wrapped up in those things. It's so subtle, and sometimes I don't see how subtle. Which is why I need to ask myself this question: "Will I be ok, if (fill-in-the-blank) Does Not happen?". Can I truly say, "All I have is Christ?". It's a question that reveals my treasure, what am I hoping in and looking towards. It's ok to want good things, and we should pray about them, it is when you feel like you will be unhappy and unsatisfied if you don't get those things, that it becomes idolatrous.

I want to echo Paul, and sincerely be satisfied in Christ alone, I want to be able to say with Job when everything was stripped from him: "Though he slay me, I will hope in him (Job 13:15).

So ask yourself this question, test your heart. If the things you want in life will never happen, how will you react? Anger, frustration and resentment or peace and contentment? How you react to the loss of things (or potential loss of things) is indicative of where your treasure lies. Are you coveting that which won't last, or resting in the sufficiency of the savior?



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Monday, June 13, 2011

Forgiving from the Heart

... For he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil. Be merciful, even as your father is merciful. (Luke 6:35)


Then his master summoned him and said to him, 'You wicked servant! I forgave you all that debt because you pleaded with me. And should not you have had mercy on your fellow servant, as I had mercy on you? (Matthew 18:32-33)

Awhile back I received a strong rebuke from one of my roommates about my attitude toward another guy. I had been harboring deep bitterness for the pain and grief he had caused me. As a result, I was full of anger and resentment. He had put me through so much that I was unable to forgive him, or so I told myself. In response to my unforgiving attitude my roommate shot this question at me, "Do you have any idea the crap you and I did to Christ?!" It was one of the strongest rebukes I've ever had. And through it, I saw that I had really failed to grasp that the gospel affects how we live with--and show mercy--to one another. We can never stare too often or too long at the mercy of God. It is so easy to forget how much I have been forgiven, nothing anyone has ever done to me can ever match the amount of evil I have done to God in my rebellion. We were once his enemies, waging war against him with our sin but it was his kindness and mercy that paid for our sins and reconciled us to himself. It is vital that we dwell on the riches of his kindness to us. We fail to believe the gospel when we treat another sibling in Christ or an unbelieving neighbor with contempt, scorn, or resentment because we fail to remember the horror we inflicted on the son of God.

Furthermore, our refusal to show forgiveness and mercy demonstrates that we have not truly received the father's forgiveness and mercy. A good friend pointed it out to me, that the king in the Matthew 18 parable was angry with the unmerciful servant not simply because he was cruel (he was) but that the servant never truly received the King's mercy. Showing mercy to others is a fundamental part--an outpour--of our receiving, treasuring, and trusting in the mercy of God the father. So, are you harboring any bitterness in you heart? Has someone just really ticked you off big time? Do you feel that some people aren't worthy of your interest, time, or patience? Then run to the cross! Remember what you have been spared. It is only by dwelling on how patient and merciful God has been to you that you can be merciful to your brother, sister, or neighbor. And trust God to keep His promise to make obedience "healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones" (Proverbs 3:8).

Friday, June 3, 2011

God's Timing

"God’s sense of timing will confound ours, no matter what culture we’re from. His grace rarely operates according to our schedule. When Jesus looks at Jairus and says, “Trust me, be patient,” in effect he is looking over Jairus’s head at all of us and saying, “Remember how when I calmed the storm I showed you that my grace and love are compatible with going through storms, though you may not think so? Well, now I’m telling you that my grace and love are compatible with what seem to you unconscionable delays.” It’s not “I will not be hurried even though I love you”; it’s “I will not be hurried because I love you. I know what I’m doing. And if you try to impose your understanding of schedule and timing on me, you will struggle to feel loved by me.” (Kings Cross, by Tim Keller, pg. 63)



Sunday, May 8, 2011

The Truth Behind Complaining

This is an excerpt from Stephen Alltroge's book "The Greener Grass Conspiracy." It was a section that stood out to me (among others) and really convicted me. Do we really take time to think through, what we are ACTUALLY saying when we as christians, complain about our life?


When we complain, we're saying that the blessings of the gospel aren't enough. We're saying that the death of Christ isn't enough. We're saying that eternal fellowship with God, purchased at great cost to God, isn't enough to satisfy our souls. We're saying that forgiveness of sins and peace with God is nice, but not that nice. We're saying that God "[has] not wisdom, or power, or mercy enough," to provide for us. We're saying that God himself, who is the very definition of goodness, isn't good enough. We would like a little something more, if you don't mind. God plus [insert desire of choice] should do the trick. When we complain, we accuse God of being stingy, of not giving us enough. Do you see the utter sinfulness of complaining? It tramples the gospel in the mud and paints God as a cosmic Scrooge. Even though God gave up what was most precious to him to bring us to himself, it's not enough. Even though God proved his generosity with blood, we don't believe him. God has emptied his pockets for us, and yet we complain.1

We desperately need to return, again and again to the gospel. Re-applying it daily. When tempted to complain, it is vital that we remember "the hell we deserve and the heaven we've received."






1 Altrogge, Stephen "The Greener Grass Conspiracy" p. 72, Crossway

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Book Review: "The Greener Grass Conspiracy" by Stephen Alltroge

I must admit I have been anxiously anticipating the release of this book ever since it's author first mentioned it. I only know Stephen Alltroge through his immensely encouraging and incredibly hilarious tweets and blog posts--so when I received his book in the mail, to say I was stoked would be a big understatement.

Alltroge's book is not the reflections of a contentment master, but the "sweaty, bloody, hastily scribbled notes from a battlefield,"(p. 14) as he puts it so adequately. What the book lacks in length, it makes up for in substance and biblical reflection. As I read each chapter, I felt like I was being pierced on every side: Stephen slowly unveiled idols in my heart and uncovered the truth behind the lies that I so easily believe regarding what would make for a better life. While quick on the humor, he does not mince words. He is direct about what scripture teaches and serious about the dangers of the discontented heart.

In particular, he describes it as a sin that kills joy, leads to hardness of heart, and tells the world that God is a liar and untrustworthy.

God really spoke to me through this book but I also thought about how this will really serve so many other people. The battle for contentment is one of the biggest spiritual struggles in my own life. I hardly think that I am unique. And if you are reading this review, there is a good chance that you too are familiar with discontentment.

Alltroge does a terrific job of uncovering many of the nuances of this deceitful sin, and caused me to realize how discontentment often lies beneath other sins that we struggle with: lust, envy, ambition, lying, pride, and so on. Alltroge also provides a lot of practical guidance through the application questions provided at the end of the chapter. As a result, I think that the book lends itself well to being discussed in a group setting. In fact, I would go so far as to place this book at the top of my shortlist for small group reading. (I am seriously considering donating copies to my own church.)

Stephen shows himself to be a true gospel-centered pastor, continually pointing the reader back to the cross, and the person of Jesus Christ. If you are looking for practical and engaging insight in the fight for contentment, then I highly recommend Stephen Alltroge's "The Greener Grass Conspiracy." If you think you can trust my judgment, get this book!

Friday, April 22, 2011

"In Evil Long I Took Delight". Poem by John Newton

In evil long I took delight,
Unawed by shame or fear,
Till a new object struck my sight,
And stopp'd my wild career:

I saw One hanging on a Tree
In agonies and blood,
Who fix'd His languid eyes on me.
As near His Cross I stood.

Sure never till my latest breath,
Can I forget that look:
It seem'd to charge me with His death,
Though not a word He spoke:

My conscience felt and own'd the guilt,
And plunged me in despair:
I saw my sins His Blood had spilt,
And help'd to nail Him there.

Alas! I knew not what I did!
But now my tears are vain:
Where shall my trembling soul be hid?
For I the Lord have slain!

--A second look He gave, which said,
"I freely all forgive;
This blood is for thy ransom paid;
I die that thou may'st live."

Thus, while His death my sin displays
In all its blackest hue,
Such is the mystery of grace,
It seals my pardon too.

With pleasing grief, and mournful joy,
My spirit now is fill'd,
That I should such a life destroy,
Yet live by Him I kill'd!





Location:Bradley Blvd,Greenville,United States

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Are You Teachable?

Reading through the book of Proverbs can be one of the most challenging experiences in studying scripture. Yet, it is also one of the most rewarding. While the themes that can be listed are endless, there is one I want to zero in on. One that God has really been bringing to my attention and convicting me: The wisdom in receiving instruction and the stupidity of shirking it.

Whenever a brother or sister in Christ calls me out on a particular bit of sin, I find that my initial reaction is one of blatant pride. Someone sees something that could grow into a huge problem and my brain goes right into defensive mode: "They don't know what they're talking about", or "Well, there's another self-righteous punk out to attack and look down on me", or "You don't know me, what gives you the right to judge me like that!?" These thoughts--and more--spring from my heart in response to someone attempting to bring instruction, correction, or advice.

But Proverbs appears to constantly exalt the teachable and gives warning to those who would, like me, respond in pride:

"Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge, but he who hates reproof is stupid" (12:1)

"The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man listens to advice" (Proverbs 12:15)

"A rebuke goes deeper into a man of understanding than a hundred blows into a fool" (17:10)

"Listen to advice and accept instruction, that you may gain wisdom in the future" (19:20)

"Hear Instruction and be wise, and do not neglect it. Blessed is the one who listens to me." (8:33)

"Whoever heeds instruction is on the path to life, but he who rejects reproof leads others astray" (10:17)

"Poverty and disgrace come to him who ignores instruction, but whoever heeds reproof is honored" (13:18)
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Whoever ignores instruction despises himself, but he who listens to reproof gains intelligence." (15:32)


This list is far from exhaustive, just enough to hint at what God has been revealing to me lately--whenever I dismiss what brothers/sisters in Christ say, I am denying a means of grace in my sanctification. It is an act of love for a brother to call me out on an issue. Sure, there are people who are overly-critical and harsh, and that absolutely needs to be addressed as well. God wants to shape their hearts also.

On the other hand, he doubtless uses there mis-spoken critiques to work out sanctification in the lives of those around them. So we should be careful not to dismiss what they say altogether! If there is a chance that God, in his sovereignty, could reveal truth to me through what they say, I would be a fool to ignore it. Throughout the bible, we see God using imperfect people to accomplish his purpose in the world, so is it completely absurd to think he is still doing the same when it comes to my life?

Consequently, I want to be more teachable, more open to correction, and more inviting to others so that they can speak the words that God gives them to grow me. May the Lord soften me to his well-placed reproofs, and show me how to delight in this means of grace!

I thank God to be in a church where there are men and women willing to do just that. Do they do it perfectly? Heck no! But they care, and God is at work as they step out in faith. Even when it's someone I've wronged deeply, they still care enough to call me out on it. And imperfect though it be, the love of Christ is still modeled.

As we grow in fellowship with our local church communities, we need to ask questions of ourselves and others so that we do not overlook sin. We need to have Gospel-focused vision that is on the look out for grace and sin in our midst so that we can give and receive correction--and encouragement--with joy.

I want to invite criticism and I need grace to call people out in a loving way and not overlook the sin. And I want to ask questions of myself that demand I take input seriously, stopping to pray through what people say to me and carefully examine the responses of my heart to criticism. In short, I want to be teachable.

God is making me more like his son, and he uses imperfect sinners to accomplish the hard and long process. I would be a fool to ignore it. How about you? How are you reacting in response to criticism?

Monday, March 28, 2011

A Complialation of Scotty Ward Smith's "Signs You're Growing in Grace"

I've really enjoyed following Scotty Smith, Pastor of Christ Community Church in Franklin TN, on twitter (@scottywardsmith) he's written so much that's been good for my soul. I've especially been encouraged by his "signs you are growing in grace" tweets. They've really challenged, encouraged, and provoked much thought in me. I decided to compile some of the ones that have really hit me hard. This is not an exhaustive list, nor should it be used as a means of condemnation or rule-keeping legalism, but it should aid in probing your own heart, help you see more your need for Christ and drive you further to him, encourage you and build assurance, or give you something to think about and point out in fellow brothers and sisters in your church or in your own family:

- "You handle your failures with honesty, humility, and hope."


- "You blame less, and forebear more."

- "Your recovery time from irritability, resentment and smugness is getting shorter."


- "No matter what anyone says about you, you realize the cross is your greatest critic and cure."


- "You are quicker at seeing and grieving YOUR bad attitude, than noticing anyone else's."


- "You rush to mercy quicker than you rush to judgment."


- "When you weren't invited to an event others were, it hurts, but you don't retaliate."


- "You can tell when you're starting to manupulate people and you nip it in the bud."


- "You don't condescendingly roll your eyes as often or make as many flippant remarks."


- "You long and pray for the Holy Spirit to visit your heart & Church in transforming power."


- "Less and less seems really whine-worthy"


- "You expect to discover more of your need for Jesus today & more of th riches of Jesus."


- "The older you get the more you remember stuff your parents actually did right."


- "You want to trust again more than you want to stay stuck in your hurt."


- "Your inwards groans are getting louder and your eager waiting more intense. Romans 8:23"


- "You know the difference being obsessively busy and providentially busy."


- "The people who know you best would say you live more of a called life than a driven life."


- "You know you're not anywhere close to being as free as Jesus intends."


- "You boast IN your weaknesses but you don't boast about them. They don't define you."


- "You don't live by the frowns and judgments of professional weaker brothers."


- "You know the difference between dialouge and diatribe when discussing theological matters."


- "You're beter about responding to calls and invitations, and sending thank you notes."


- "If you don't know, you don't pretend you do."


- "You don't feel the need to pose and pretend as often or as much."


- "You spend way less time stuck in the paralysis of analysis"


- "Because of God's grace at work in your heart, it's getting harder to gossip, nag & snarl."


- "The gap between your sound doctrine and your actual discipleship is narrowing."


- "You repend freely and regularly, to your spouse and children"


- "You grieve how touchy, pouty and defensive you can be."


- "People you're talking with don't just hear your words but experience your presence."


- "You recognize quicker when you're importing last year's anger into today's disappointment."


- "You practice the anatomical ratio of ears to mouth: Listening twice as much as talking."


- "The more you understand your union with Christ the more you crave communion with him."


- "Repentance is becoming less something YOU do and more Someone you trust, namely Jesus."


- "Your cry for a changed heart is louder than your cry for relief."


- "There are fewer pages in the little book in which you keep a record of wrongs done to you."


- "You notice a person's dignity before you notice their depravity."


- "The time lapse between the Spirit's convicting and your repenting is much shorter."


- "Your use of caller ID reflects your commitment to love well, not simply avoid people"


- "What you are behind the steering wheel is a demonstration of the power of the gospel."


- "You don't violate confidences. You can be trusted with the brokenness of others."


- "You think about fixing people less and loving them more."


- "You don't trust signs, just Jesus."


- "You don't objecify your chuch for criticism. You weep with her as a member of the family"


- "You find yourself choosing to use the phrase, "you don't get me" less and less."


- "It takes minutes not weeks to recognize when you've fallen back into works righteousness."


- "Your theology always leads to doxology, not merely to you being more right than others."


- "Compliments don't intoxicate you and criticism doesn't decimate you."


- "You don't linger at religious TV programming just to fuel contempt & make snide remarks."


- "Your thoughts of heaven are more about the transforming of this world than escaping it."


- "You feel like you're just beggining to appreciate all the riches and depth of John 3:16"


- "Less cynicism about other people's sins and more tears over your own"


- "It's getting easier not to retaliate, get even, or even crave god's vengeance ."


- "You're increasingly less quarrelsome, sarcastic and easily offended."


- "You're content, even glad knowing that God sometimes answers your prayers with "no"."


- "You've got a whole lot more confidence in Jesus' prayers than yours"


- "The word "idolatry" makes you think about your heart more so than Greek temples."


- "When you think about "blessings" from God, suffering makes your list."


- "You don't debate eschatology, you live it."


- "The more you learn about Jesus and the gospel the more you realize how little YOU know."


- "The gospel still astonishes & humbles you. It's not just cliche or the name of your tribe."


- "You don't use your car horn to curse bad drivers, but appropriately caution & warn them."


- "Not texting or reading emails on your pda while driving, with or without kids."


- A commitment to pray for people you'd really rather gossip about.


- "Still being gracious to telemarketers when they call your protected phone number."


- "A commitment to give your spouse focused, unrushed attention at the END of the day."


- "You talk about your justification 10 times more than your victimization."


- "You throw less pity-parties, because you go to Jesus quicker than to self-contempt"


- "Your repentances come quicker with less pouting, excuses and vain promises."


- "You catch people "doing it right" in a 3-1 ratio to "doing it wrong".


- "You long for your heart to come more fully alive to the love of Jesus."


- "When telling your story, you end up talking about Jesus more than you."


- "You love hearing Jesus' name exalted and you're not as pained when you don't hear yours."


- "You know, that given the right circumstances, there is no sin you're beyond committing."


- "For every one look at yourself you take ten looks at Jesus- your righteousness and peace."


- "One by one, God's perfect loe for you in Jesus is exposing and driving out your fears."


- " You're thankful Jesus hasn't just forgiven all your sins, but also all your good works"

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Peter's Denial

"Peter said to him, Lord, I am ready to go with you both to prison and death. Jesus said, "I tell you, Peter, the rooster will not crow three times this day, until you deny me three times that you do not know me" (Luke 22:33-34)


Peter's response resonates with me: In the height of spiritual fervor, Peter thinks he is finally ready to give Jesus his "100%," but Jesus knew what was in the heart of man. It was why He came into the world. We have an complete inability to earn God's favor on our own. Jesus, in His omniscience, knew what Peter was going to do in all of its horrible detail. That's what omniscience means--Jesus knows all of our pasts and all of our futures in full HD.

Considering this, I got to thinking about the times I come to Jesus, promising to do all sorts of things for Him: "Oh yea! I'm gonna tackle the Word. I'm gonna do this and that, I'm ready to do anything for you Lord." Little do I know that, in under an hour, I'll end up screaming at a car that cuts me off, or fall into some other sin.

Yet, this passage is not just another reminder about the depravity of man; it reveals something extraordinary about the God we serve, His faithful love. He knows everything we are going to do, and yet does not cast us off. Though Peter denied Jesus, the Lord of all, Jesus never denied Peter. As Christians, we can be comforted by the fact that our sin does not take God by surprise. He knows what we are going to do in EXACT detail. It did not stop him from going to the cross. And because of the cross, we can have confidence that God is always pleased with us, and that He is doing something real and absolutely effective about our sin.

So, do you find yourself you discouraged by your failures or taken by surprise by your sin? Don't be, God's not. He is saying to you, "I know you failed, I knew you were going to fail the last time you came to me in prayer, and exactly when and how. But you are still my child, what you did was paid for with the blood of my son, you are justified."

This does not mean we should be slacking in personal holiness, but should enable us to pursue holiness in the freedom of knowing, "Nothing can separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord"(Romans 8:39).

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Beautiful Timing

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." (Jeremiah 29:11)



"He has made everything beautiful in its time" (Ecclesiastes 3:11)


I am so impatient. I love the Jeremiah verse, but I don't know about you, but I find myself wondering most of the time, "ok, so when are these plans gonna happen?" I wanna know the when, more than I want to take God at his word. Waiting is hard, sometimes I adopt an attitude of, "you know NOW would be a good time for you to do this." The verse in Ecclesiastes has been an encouragement to me. This verse always helps me to remember, that God's timing is so much superior to my own. In my sinful arrogance, I actually believe I know when God should deliver and do things, that God should work to my time table. But I am realizing more and more that I need to trust the he is good in his dealings with his children and he is good in the timing of everything. Waiting is hard, and it stinks but that waiting should not lead me to impatience and bitterness, but should drive me to cling to Christ even more. We are called to trust that not only will he do good, but that his timing is good as well. This verse says it's BEAUTIFUL! This is a great promise that we can trust.

Don't give into impatience or cynicism, remember God does have good plans for you, and we are to take him at his word, not question the when or how or whatever, but follow and trust the one who says so. His timing will always be better than you can dream. Rest in his word, not how you feel. He is for you and wants you to trust him.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

The idols of the Heart and the Jealousy of God

"For you shall worship no other God, for the Lord, whose name is jealous, is a jealous God" (Exodus 34:14)



This past Friday at Care Group, my friend Laura made a statement that really has been hounding me, and one that I had forgotten up till then. What she said was simple: "the Lord is a jealous God." It caught my attention because recently I had a plan completely crushed by the Lord, and it has left me feeling discouraged and in pain. I've been thinking a great deal about God's dealings with his people in the old testament, how they would quickly run to build idols and run to them for security, solace, deliverance, ect. Pastor Tullian Tchividjian, in his book "Surprised by Grace", has this to say about idols:

Idolatry is centering our attention and affection on something, or someone, smaller than God. In fact, most idols are good things in our lives that we turn into ultimate things, things that take God's place as we unconsciously depend on them to give our lives meaning and security.1

When my plans came crumbling down, I spent the vast majority of my time feeling completely destroyed. Looking back on the last couple of weeks, I can see that this plan had really gotten a hold of my heart. I was looking to find fullfillment and peace in this thing working out. Was God being cruel when he closed this door? Was he being a malignant bully trying to rob me of happiness? Absolutely NOT!!

When the bible speaks of God being a jealous God, it means that his love for us is so strong that he will do anything and everything to keep us from giving ourselves to things that were never meant to satisfy or fulfill us. Anything that threatens the good of his bride, will be opposed. When we run to idols, we are playing the whore, committing adultery against a powerful and merciful king, who is not reacting from fear or weakness, but from a "holy indignation at having his honor, power, and mercy scorned by a fickle spouse." (John Piper)2 I don't think I'll ever wrap my mind around the fact that the same God who DOES NOT need us (Acts 17:24-25) is the same God who is passionately jealous for us and desires that we enjoy him, "the fountain of living water". The God who recklessly pursues ungrateful fugitives deserving of wrath and condemnation.

What God's been showing me, is that my reaction indicates that I had been putting way too much hope in this thing (which was a good thing), in essence I was worshipping, and the pain of the loss was indicative that I had held on to it more than God. When God was wrecking my hands open, as painful as that was, he was actually acting in love, out of jealousy. Is there anything that you are treasuring, finding security in, hoping in, more than God? He will do anything to keep you, submit your desires and plans to him. Don't cling, give them up and trust that he is good, and that HE will be enough for you, in the here, now, and forever.




1 Tullian Tchividjian, Surprised by Grace, p. 101
2 John Piper, "The Lord Whose Name is Jealous" www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/sermons/the-lord-whose-name-is-jealous

Monday, February 14, 2011

When God Denies Us Things

I think it's safe to say many Christians have felt the sting of something being denied them. You have a legitmately good desire and it seems God has said no and shut the door on it. In those moments I tend to think something like, "This doesn't feel like good God. what the heck!?" You can be tempted to doubt God's goodness when things don't work out like you want. But, as I've had to remind myself recently, there is a vast chasm between what I think is good and what God says is good for me.

John Piper gave an illustration once about how his son, when he was younger, wanted a cracker from the cupboard. When Piper went to the cupboard he saw that the whole box had gotten moldy and needed to be thrown out and so instead he gave him something else to snack on. He recalled how in giving his son something different, he had a real hard time explaining to his child that the cracker was bad for him and the other treat was better. The child was unable to understand that the cracker wasn't good for him at all. Aren't we the same way? We see God denying certain things and we are so convinced that he is being cruel and sadistic. We think we know what the good is and if it's denied us, we pout. The truth of the matter is that God is protecting us from harm. He loves us too much to give us what we want--if it's no good.

In Matthew 7, Jesus pointed us to how God displays His goodness through His gifts: "[W]hich one of you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!" (9-11) Applying Jesus' teaching to our situation, we should note that it is perfectly legitimate to have desires. We should make sure that they are in keeping with the Bible's teaching, but desires are natural and can even lead us to growth in Christ. But we should never assume that what we think is "good" is what God thinks is best for us. Just like Piper's child, I don't see things as I should, I am so convinced that the fuzzed, infested cracker is good, and in frustration I ask, "If my Father was so good, wouldn't He give this to me?"

Given my fallen state, I should hold every desire with the knowledge that my perception of what is good is tainted. Desiring to have what we perceive as being good is what got Adam and Eve in trouble in the first place. To avoid their mistake--empowered by the Gospel, I need to trust that God is a good father, who really does know what's best for me; and if he denies me something in the moment he's protecting me from harm.

So maybe you are struggling with being denied something--the job you wanted, the raise, the promotion, a relationship, whatever. But in your struggles, don't ignore the central truths of what we know about God. See, when it comes down to it, the struggle has less to do with the particular issue at hand and much more to do with the crucial question: Are you going to choose to believe that God is your Father and He is perfect in wisdom and wont deny you ANY good thing?

There comes a point when we need to stop gazing after the thing denied and turn our hearts toward the Father who is the very essence of goodness Himself. Look how lavishly he displays His love in the Gospel: He gave up His only perfect Son for you. Do you really think that He would hand you a stone today?

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

"Give to the Winds Thy Fears"

Came across this poem by a man named Paul Gerhardt about our nights turning to day

Give to the winds thy fears,
Hope and be undismayed.
God hears thy sighs and counts thy tears,
God shall lift up thy head

Through waves and clouds and storms,
He gently clears thy way;
Wait thou His time; so shall this night
Soon end in joyous day.

Far, far above thy thought,
His counsel shall appear,
when fully He the work hath wrought,
That caused thy needless fear.

Leave to His sovereign sway
To choose and to command;
So shalt thou, wondering, own that way,
How wise, how strong this hand

"give to the Winds Thy Fears" (1656) Paul Gerhardt

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Small Faith?

Do you ever feel down because of the size of your faith? I can get pretty discouraged by my lack of faith, it seems like it'll never grow it's so small. This quote from Spurgeon really helped me, it is very dangerous to live by how we feel.

"I often hear this from young beginners in the divine life, "I was so happy a month ago, but I have lost that happiness now." Perhaps tomorrow, after they have been at the house of God, they will be as cheerful as possible, but the next day their joy is gone. Beware, my dear Christian friends, of living by feeling. John Bunyan puts down Mr. Live-by-feeling as one of the worst enemies of the town of Mansoul. I think he said he was hanged. I am afraid he, somehow or other, escaped from the executioner, for I very commonly meet him; and there is no villain that hates the souls of men and causes more sorrow to the people of God than this Mr. Live-by-feeling. He that lives by feeling will be happy today, and unhappy tomorrow; and if our salvation depended upon our feelings, we should be lost one day and saved another, for they are as fickle as the weather, and go up and down like a barometer. We live by faith, and if that faith be weak, bless God that weak faith is faith, and that weak faith is true faith. If thou believest in Christ Jesus, though thy faith be as a grain of mustard seed, it will save thee, and it will, by-and-bye, grow into something stronger. A diamond is a diamond, and the smallest scrap of it is of the same nature as the Koh-i-noor, and he that hath but little faith hath faith for all that; and it is not great faith that is essential to salvation, but faith that links the soul to Christ; and that soul is, therefore, saved. Instead of mourning so much that thy faith is not strong, bless God that thou hast any faith at all, for if he sees that thou despisest the faith he has given thee, it may be long before he gives thee more. Prize that little, and when he sees that thou art so glad and thankful for that little, then will he multiply it and increase it, and thy faith shall mount even to the full assurance of faith

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Does The Lord Hear My Cries?

Have there been times in your prayer life, when you feel like you're unable to put into words what you're feeling? or that your lack of appropriate language will jeopardize you prayers? I often wonder whether God really hears me. I often get really frustrated and then discouraged because I think that God won't hear me if I can't put my anxieties, feelings, or thoughts into words correctly. I foolishly believe that God's faithfulness to hear my prayers is contingent on me having adequate words. This bit of scripture and quote from theologian A.W. Pink returned to my attention and greatly encouraged me. We Christians come to a heavenly father who truly cares for us, communication will never be a problem with God. He knows, he hears, and will care for us.

"It shall come to pass that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking I will hear" (Isaiah 65:24)

There is no cause for fearing that the petitions of the righteous will not be heard, or that their sighs and tears shall escape the notice of God, since he knows the thoughts and intents of the hearts. There is no danger of the individual saint being overlooked amidst the multitude of supplicants who daily and hourly present their various petitions, for an infinite mind is as capable as paying the same attention to millions as if only one individual were seeking its attention. So too the lack of appropriate language, the inability to give expression to the deepest longing of the soul, will not jeopardize our prayers ("The Attributes of God")

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Freedom to Love

This is a section from Pastor Tullian Tchvidjian's book Surprised by Grace. If you have not read it, I highly recommend you pick it up. Reading it has helped me see how I need the gospel EVERY day, its not the first step we leave behind once we are saved, but is the medicine we need each and every day. The following section was one of my favorites, Tullian draws it out more, but this section is the crux. It has helped me in seeing how, as a believer, God's love for me should affect how I love and treat others.




In Jesus, we also have all the affection we long for. The gospel rescues us from the fear of not being loved as well as our fear of loving. The gospel tells us that God in Christ loved us a lot -- even while we hated him. Fully realizing this will pave the way for us to love others unconditionally as well. We realize and experience this liberating truth: "By this we know love, that he laid down his life for us, and we ought to lay down our lives for the brothers." (1 John 3:16) This kind of lay-down-your-life love is the clearest indicator of a gospel centered life. But laying down your life is impossible. It's too scary -- unless you know you've been eternally loved by Christ. Then your free to give your life to others, because you've received so much yourself.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

What is the Bible Basically About?

Confession: I've always had a hard time with the old testament. All the strange stories for the longest time never made sense to me. In my confusion, I've often been tempted to just stay away from the old testament and stick to the new testament. The thing is, ALL the bible is God's word, all of it is "sharper than any two-edged sword" all of it is vital. But what has the old testament have to do with Jesus?

Awhile back I came across this video by Tim Keller, pastor of Redeemer Presbyterian Church in New York. I find myself coming back to it because it has really encouraged and helped me in seeing how everything in the old testament points to Christ; that the stories and scenes are shadows of the glorious gospel to be revealed. All of if is dripping with gospel truth that has since shaped how I view the old testament. I hope it encourages you and spurs you on toward more reading. This is what the bible is really about.